well

i have been gone too long with 1) traveling to florida 2) clearing up skin 3) working out and 4) trying to figure out ww maintenance. so far, so good, but i really need a place to journal what happens and what i'm doing mentally. so for the next few weeks, this might turn into that. don't be alarmed, i'll settle down.

for now it's just the weird fear that adding tiny amounts of food will make me gain weight. i know what that is. i was 'in control,' or felt it anyway, and now i don't feel so in control.